I wrote this essay in 2000, a few moments before quantum physics became a household term while frantically putting my application together for the (read aloud with a snooty british accent. or a blonde sorority girl intonation. whatever.): USC school of cinema-television. So yeah, this essay, in written form essentially got me into film school. I'm pretty sure it wasn't my freshman year gpa.

I had just returned from my first year on the playa and was reading a lot about quantum physics and had, in my previous semester been taking philosophy, anthropology and astronomy all at the same time. Dem were some serious paradigm shifts, I tell you. I thought perhaps I was going crazy. I was getting all of this new information from all over the place about the constructs of the universe and the very threads of life itself. And I was surrounded by people who stared at me like I had thirteen hollow watermelons for a head when I tried to talk to them about this stuff. So I sat down in a flurry of creation and I wrote about what I was experiencing: Awakening. Wholly other perceptions of the world around me. Intense awareness and sensitivities to sensory stimuli. Paradigm shifts.

A couple of years later, I was asked to produce an original personal video statement for my application to be a Digital Correspondent for Current TV (which was then INDTV- they never went through with the whole DC thing. I'll spare you the rant). I dusted off the old essay, which was scrawled in silver ink on a black notebook, and compiled, shot and edited the whole thing in one night. I originally used Thoman Newman's "Dead Already" from the American Beauty Score, one of my favorite film scores of all time. Recently, with the whole webvideo explosion thing happening, I realized I didn't really want to use copyrighted music. So I recut the whole thing to my talented friend James' "Two Wishes to Hold in Reserve" from his album Capitol Hill Secret Tracks. And, well, there ya have it. The way too long history of this shot + edited in one night, passionately vulnerable video of mine. Betcha that was really too much information. But it's my video and I'll ramble if I wanna.